I want to share an amazing experience I had in my meditation yesterday morning.
The night before, I’d been thinking about finances and why we’re doing such good work, yet we seem to struggle each month to pay the bills. So, as I was nearing the end of the evening practice, I asked a few questions to stimulate my subconscious mind while sleeping. One of the questions I asked was: What are the blocks that are standing in the way of infinite abundance (my Authentic Self)?
I must also interject here an experience earlier that day: Viv and I were driving home from the Art of the Song studio/office. She was driving and I was in a crabby mood for some reason or another. We pulled up behind a car at a stop light and I read aloud the bumper sticker on the car in front of me which said: “My Inner Child is a Mean Little f#*%er.” Viv didn’t see the bumper sticker and thought that I was just responding in our discussion about why I was in a crabby mood. We had a good laugh over that one!
Anyway, as I was meditating the next morning, I found myself in third grade on the elementary school steps, and a recurring memory came to life. One of my classmates, Donna, was teasing me, calling me “dill pickle” and making fun of the fact that I came from a “rich” family, like that was a bad thing. I’ve been aware of this memory for some time now and know that it has had an effect on my ability to earn money… my prosperity consciousness. In other words this has been a major block for me. I’ve done hypnotherapy around it, written about it, but it wasn’t until this experience that I feel that I’ve really transformed and dissolved the block.
Continuing on with the meditation experience… This time instead of withdrawing and feeling bad about myself, I tapped into my mean little inner child and stood up to her saying, “F*%k off Donna, I’m not a dill pickle and I’m proud of my family! Did you know that people with money can help a lot of people and make a big difference in the world? I don’t know what’s wrong with you, but I love my family and I’m proud that my great grandfather started a business that now gives employment to over a hundred families in this town!”
Woo hoo! I finally worked through that one paving the way for a truly prosperous 2011!!! It’s amazing how the Universe conspires to bring us exactly what we need at the right time. If I hadn’t been in a crabby mood… If we hadn’t pulled up behind the car with the bumper sticker… If I hadn’t been musing about our financial situation in the evening practice… this breakthrough might not have happened in such a meaningful way.
I’m filled with awe and gratitude!